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    My Love,

        The days seem to be getting harder and harder as the time comes closer to being able to move so we can finally be together and start our life as one. I thought by now things would be getting easier as we were getting close to our finish line but it seems to be getting worse. I miss you more and more each and every day. I know you are at your final days before you move and we still arent sure with me yet but soon, my love, soon we will be able to be in each others arms again and this time not have to let go. I will have my babygirl back and no one will have to leave again. I know things are stressful right now and i know we are both having a hard time right now but we will get thru this just like we will get thru anything that comes our way. I am realizing more and more as each day passes and we are apart just how much you truly mean to me and how much i am madly in love with you and need you in my life.

      I dont want months with you, or even years. I want decades and centuries with you. You are my World and and i cant see my life without you in it anymore. I cant wait to grow old with you my amazing girl. And everyday, (even on ur bad days) you make me feel like the luckiest woman in the world. You have shown me what true love really is, and have shown me what true happiness is. I cant even begin to describe what you mean to me and how you make me feel and I cant thank the stars above enough for our fateful meet we had.

         To you, babygirl, you are my love, my life, my sun that makes my days brighter. You are the air i breathe, and the moon that lights up my nights. You have become my everything and and no one or nothing else will ever change that. You have all of me and my heart and i never want it back. You are so freaking amazing and you truly are an angel in disguise they came in and saved me. I love you with everything in me, my love and just wanted to let you know how special you are to me. We are now down to counting down weeks and i cant freaking wait!!!!

                                                                        Love Always and Forever,

                                                                                         Me

  Just letting everyone know I’m still here and around, I have just been absent from chat for awhile. Same with stitch. We are just working on getting our move to be together underway. I still get on and check my notifications and messages so if you need me or want me, then send me a message and I will see it. We have decided our mutual location is going to be Tennessee so that will be our new home and where we officially start our life together. We are so excited and so ready to be together, tht the patience is wearing thin, lol. 
  
   Oh, and we are still together (obviously, lol) and our love and bond for and with each other is stronger than ever. I’m pretty sure I have officially found the love of my life and am truly and honestly happy for the first time in my entire life. I can’t wait to see what my future holds with her by my side and I am now to tht point where I can’t imagine my life without her in it ever again. I love u babygirl, with everything inside of me and am so happy and proud to call u MINE!!!

     I now know what real love feels like.

     I now know what it is like to have someone truly care about me in all ways and not for just something i can offer.

     I now know what a true connection really feels like, in EVERY aspect there is to have one. 

     I now know what it means to truly love someone myself. What i thought was love in my past has absolutely NO comparison to the way i feel about her.

    I now know what it means to have and feel those butterflies in your stomach over someone.

    I now know what it feels like to crave someones affection and attention.

    I now know what a true bond with someone really is.

    But also, I now know what it feels like to really miss someone.

    I now know the heartbreak of having to be separated for a time from the person you truly love and care about.

    I now know what its like when people talk about the scent of a person and it making them crave them even more. ( i have never in my life experienced that.... until now)

    I now know what its like to cry myself to sleep over the amount of love i have for someone.

    I now know the pain of being separated by exactly 1,330 miles and not being able to touch her or hold her any time i want. 

     I really don't know what she did, or how she did it, but she has done it (whatever "it" may be), but i don't regret one min or second of it and i don't ever want it to change. She has given me a new aspect on life and has also given me feelings that i never want to go away. 

    I use to watch (i still do, lol) Christmas movies just to see the cute little romantic love that you only see in the movies, and the strong out of the blue connections that get made in them as well.... now i dont have to anymore because i have the real deal. 

    I now know what its like to have that type of relationship you see in the movies!!!

   The time has come to where I had to watch her walk away. Our visit has come to an end and its heartbreaking. I have fallen in love with her even more then I thought I already could have. When she left, she took my heart with her and I dont want it back. This week has shown me and has proven to me why anyone from my past never worked out. It has shown me what it truly feels like to be 1000000% happy again. She has shown me how it truly feels to actually be loved. She has brought out a side of me tht I haven't seen in a LONG time and it feels amazing!!

   Babygirl, thank you for coming into my life and thank you for bringing out the me tht I havent seen in what seems like forever. Thank you for loving me and showing me love tht I never knew existed. I love u with everything tht I have and can NOT wait to hold u in my arms again!!💋💖💋💖💋💖

    Well, my AMAZING girl got here Thurs. Yes it was VERY nerve-wracking all the way up until a few hrs after she was here, but things have been ABSOLUTELY wonderful!! It was well worth all the waiting we had to do to get to this point!! I cant believe it's already Saturday though, sad face!! 

   But we will enjoy our time together while we have it, and spend as much time together as we can before she has to leave!! I fall for her a little more each day tht passes and words can't even describe how happy she makes me and how happy I am that she came into my life.  She is truly something very rare and special and I am one of the luckiest ppl in the world!!

I love u babygirl, with all tht I have, and can't wait to continue on this journey with you. You have my heart!!!💖💖

  We have FINALLY made it.... to 24 hrs til my amazing girl will be on a plane, taking off to head this way!!! 

  Then the dreaded 5 hr flight until she lands at the airport and we can FINALLY be together rl ❤. It still feels like its been and still is taking forever, but im sure tht will change once she is finally here, and in my arms!!!

   ONE MORE WEEK!! 

The wait is FINALLY almost over! Im getting more excited and more anxious as time gets closer. But also in this time of being with her, we have continued to grow and fall more and more each day. We decided to make it official a month ago and tht time seemed to fly, up until the past couple weeks, lol. 

  I have never been more ready for sleepless nights, and physical contact as I am now!!

  Babygirl, thank you so much for joining The Cage and for jumping in my side room one random night. That decision has officially changed my life for the better and makes me one of the luckiest women in the world! I love you and can't wait to see where the future takes us!!!💖💖

And of course, thank u to everyone else for dealing with my impatience and all my ramblings about my girl. Im sure it gets old, but I cant help the happiness and excitement she brings me!!

You all r amazing!!!

16 days, 7 hrs, 7 min. And 23 seconds !!!

Why is it sooo freaking hard to wait! 

Im gonna go crazy before tht time comes!!

Ha!!! Tht is all!! Lol

   In 27 short (but forever in my mind) days, I will be able to physically run my fingers across your cheeks. I will FINALLY be able to hold you in my arms for real. I am going to get to experience you laying next to me as we cuddle. I am finally going to get to feel your lips against mine as we kiss for the very first time.

    Today, plane tickets were bought and everything was taken care of that needed to be done for the trip. It became official that this is really happening. Today marks the day of no return (of course, until u have to go back home 😪). Also, today I learned that I have never been this nervous and excited over a visit in my life. I have no words for the way you make me feel, babygirl. Its almost as if I have never knew love until you came into my life. You amaze me more and more every single day, and every single day I thank my lucky stars for unexpectedly coming into my life.  A time when we were both basically done with it all and had given up. The exact night that I was going to deactivate my account when I left chat is the exact night you sent me a private message. And now here we are. You are an angel in disguise, my love, and I just want to say thank you and I love you, and I cant wait to see where this journey leads us!! And thank you to the cage for bringing us together😉!!!!

  And to everyone else, sorry (not really) for all the mushy stuff here lately, but this girl has me on cloud 9 and it feels amazing (as if I was back in high school again). And thank you to all who have shown their love and support for us. That really does mean alot!💖💖

  I am posting this on behalf of a good friend of mine. She use to be a member here, but isn't any longer. 

  I am asking everyone who reads this to please send prayers, vibes, hope, or whatever u believe in, her way. On December 27th, she lost her babygirl to complications from the aftermath of covid and now she isnt doing good mentally herself. My heart aches so bad right now and I know she could use any love and support she can get. 

I dnt normally post about stuff like this, but if kind words and showing some love can help pull her out, im willing to do what it takes.  Thank you in advance!