1 year ago. December 23, 2022 at 12:24 PM
When do you start to feel again? When does the hollow emptiness go away and just let you breathe? When does the rigid nothingness slip away and allow the other feelings to settle in?
Because the constant physical and emotional drain is exhausting, and the mental backlash of it is soul numbing.
The darkness enveloping and carrying you forward in the blink of an eye, days...weeks-months fly by and you're just floating in the constant dreary blankness of it. Feels like you should be screaming, crying, happy, angry or sad but there's just nothing. Just the emptiness and no energy to even care.
Like reading a blank book, no beginning or end.