So many times in the last few weeks I’ve found instances where I come across something and know inside I could have done it better, been more organised, put in more effort or detail.
Simple things, small ways to make my life easier in the future and that I would normally do without a second thought. And it bothers me more than I think it should ( let’s be realistic here there’s a sliding scale of how “good/bad” things are and how guilty you should feel about it).
This then leads to thoughts on how this came about, what changed or altered my inherent behaviours and when did I start slipping, spinning for lack of a better word. I understand intellectually that this is part of emotional burnout , and that some of the things I expect of myself falls under perfectionism and toxic productivity, but there’s still that niggly little part of me that expects more of myself, and that whisper of disappointment that goes with it when these instances occur.
I have resolved to try my best not to let it get to me too much , and to make small adjustments as I go to gradually improve things overall so that’s at least some progress if nothing else.
Sometimes even just knowing that you’re struggling and deciding to gently work on it is improvement enough 🐾🦋🌸.
Has anyone had similar experiences and/or have advice on this?
