I don’t even know where to start. I could start at the broken marriages, the failed relationships, the abandonment. But I don’t really want to start with those at all. I joined the Cage, that’s where Ill start. I joined the Cage looking but not expecting to find a connection. I’ve been searching for that a long time and I’ve been through my fair share of relationships. I had met a couple of Doms and talked to them quite a bit on here. The ones that were good to me I say thank you. I’ve received a lot of messages from Doms wanting to talk and though I’ve declined many, I couldn’t decline you.
I don’t know why I didn’t decline you that night, or politely tell you to piss off. I lll never forget the night I was having. It was a bad one, I was in a sad place. When I got your message I honesty don’t even remember (because there has been so many) what it said. But I wanted to talk to you. So we exchanged info and agreed to talk the next day. I thought about you all night. Just curiously of course, knowing that curiosity killed the cat 😉.
The next day we talked, we talked ALL DAY. I smiled ALL DAY. I hadn’t had a conversation like that in years! We exchanged pics and go figure you were exactly my favorite kinda cookie man ❤️. So I was even more excited lol. Yay!!! I had plans that weekend that had fallen through and I was determined to meet you. A moment of clear insanity and lapse of responsible adult judgment, my little took over at that point. Lol. You set it up. Told me where to meet you, we decided on half way. Plenty of a drive to back out. I thought about it. That morning come and I was like a cartoon throwing EVERYTHING around in my closet trying to figure out what to wear like a crazy girl. The anticipation and the, Gosh, I don’t even know what to call it, the connection was overwhelming. I still think it’s crazy to call it a connection that early lol. Complete insanity!!! So I got in the car and started my drive, messaging you as I was heading that way. Somehow I didn’t doubt that you would be there, I don’t know why I didn’t, cause I don’t really put much merit into people anyway, but I didn’t. I told myself that I was crazy and you were probably a serial killer and that I was going to end up in a hole “putting the lotion on the skin” but the pull of you was just too much for me. Your voice, your smile, your smirks, your eyes, everything kept me driving forward. I couldn’t have said no if I had wanted too. Complete brainwashing 😇😂. I got there, well Siri said I had arrived anyway. He didn’t know how right he was. I talked to myself getting out of the car, telling myself I was crazy, not to do it, lol, this is the way people ended up in suitcases in dumpsters 🤷🏼♀️. But I had never done this before either. Then I noticed the lobby had glass walls.... 😒 So I’m thinking now you know I’m crazy cause you’ve seen me talking and pacing the parking lot. Ok, deep breath, head up, big girl panties on, and I walked into the lobby. Didn’t take but a second to spot you. Same sparkly eyes from the video calls and same little smiley smirk. Dammit I was a goner. You gave me my shot to turn around and leave, informed me it was ok. You were perfect. I think I told you I was ok, I was pretty far down that rabbit hole already and I don’t remember what I said. In the elevator you watched me, made me squirm, you knew it would. I’m glad to know you enjoyed it. Got to the door, you gave me another out before we ever walked in. The way you looked at me, the way you smelled, your voice, everything told me that I HAD to walk through that door with you. My nerves were all over the place. I was looking to you for cues, I had no idea what to say or how to act or anything. You smiled and put your hand against my face and I felt EVERYTHING, all at once. You leaned in and kissed me, I almost, like a scared cat, bolted. But instantly as that feeling hit me my knees literally went weak. I think you felt that because you moved me. The dizziness of need and desire, spread all over me. I’ve never wanted someone to touch me so bad in my life. It was surreal, and you were perfect. I’ve never “had lightening strike” like that. I knew my search was over. I knew it was way to premature to even think something so ridiculous and insane. I’d known you existed less than 48 hours. That next 24 hours with you, nothing could compare with. Not the time we have spent since then, as cherished as it is, not the future, as bright as it may be, but that first kiss and that first 24 hours. I knew I was yours. I dont know what I expected to find here daddy, but I would have never had dreamed of you. ❤️🌈🦄🧚♂️🧜🏻♀️
