Ever get one of those songs in your head that just won’t stop. This song has been playing in my head for a week. I finally gave in and have been listening to it constantly, over and over. Not a big surprise as I listen to Disney all the time anyway. This one just wont stop though. I had no idea why I liked the song so much until I started paying closer attention to the lyrics (I’ve included those at the bottom) Music is so powerful, regardless of what type it is. Even something as simple as a Disney tune can take on a whole other meaning before you even realize it. I’ve tried my whole life to be someone that I’m just not. And I just long, to be me. Now that I’ve crossed that line, obviously, I feel some guilt and conflict about leaving the comforts of conformity. I struggle with the fact that I’ve lost my parents and brothers, and that I’m looked upon with such disappointment. But the feeling of being out, the feeling of knowing that I don’t have to be who they want me to be is such a relief, I am who I am, and I don’t have to lie about it anymore. No one has ever accepted me, just at face value. Until He did. He encourages me to be me, in his own way. Its been so stressful and so busy this past week/two week, and I haven’t gotten to speak to and see him the way I have wanted too. It’s weighed on us and it caused me to be quite unreasonable with Daddy last night. I went to bed feeling awful. Fortunately, I have a very understanding Daddy and he knows me better than I do. So this morning I still was graced with my “Good Morning Princess” text, and I cried. I didn’t deserve that this morning and yet, he was gracious enough to give it to me anyway. The man has my heart and soul. I wish I could find the words to express it but they just simply don’t exist. So I’ll do the amateur thing until then and just use the “L” word. I love you Daddy, Infinitely. You are the Sea in my world. Deep, constant, endless, and vast. Thank you for being so very good to me. Tomorrow evening cannot come soon enough.
I've been staring at the edge of the water
'Long as I can remember, never really knowing why
I wish I could be the perfect daughter
But I come back to the water, no matter how hard I try
Every turn I take, every trail I track
Every path I make, every road leads back
To the place I know, where I can not go, where I long to be
See the line where the sky meets the sea? It calls me
And no one knows, how far it goes
If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me
One day I'll know, if I go there's just no telling how far I'll go
I know everybody on this island, seems so happy on this island
Everything is by design
I know everybody on this island has a role on this island
So maybe I can roll with mine
I can lead with pride, I can make us strong
I'll be satisfied if I play along
But the voice inside sings a different song
What is wrong with me?
See the light as it shines on the sea? It's blinding
But no one knows, how deep it goes
And it seems like it's calling out to me, so come find me
And let me know, what's beyond that line, will I cross that line?
The line where the sky meets the sea? It calls me
And no one knows, how far it goes
If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me
One day I'll know, how far I'll go
