Ive been shopping today...usually Daddy does the shopping but I know we have been talking about some ideas and I thought I would surprise him this morning (hes been a bit stressed out the past couple of days) New toys to add to our growing collection. Giving is my love language, if you haven't researched the love languages its eye opening. I guess actually now that I said that "out loud" so to say, that's probably why I'm a natural submissive. I love giving, whether it be time, material objects, it doesn't matter. I'm a giver.
With Daddy its easy to give and I do. give. everything. Hes earned it. He has earned it since the very first sentence he typed up, respectfully, and asked if I wanted to chat with him. Subs, that's how you know you have a real shot, a real Dom, they are respectful to you. They can be commanding, dominant, firm, (even degrading in the appropriate moments 😉 ) but they are respectful to you as a person, as a sub, as a woman/man. So I give, and I wonder if he truly knows how much I would give. I give him everything I can now and I want to give more and I cant wait to give more. He is all consuming in my world and although for a little while I thought that had changed as our relationship and my lifestyle as an individual had changed but the past few days I've realized that it hadn't. I had worried that our Dynamic had shifted/diminished because of all the IRL stuff but it hasn't. Its still just as deep as it was when we met, he is still ALL CONSUMING *eyes rolling and toes curling*, lol, in my world. My desires are all entwined with him, my dreams are entangled, and my body still aches for his touch even after a couple of hours of his absence. He is so embedded in soul that I feel like I cant breath easily when he isn't near.
I giggle, I blush, I get embarrassed easily talking about "private things", my heart races when he looks at me, my body tingles and my head gets dizzy when he touches me, hes still commanding my world and I've never trusted anyone before him to do this, much less let them do it. I've never trusted anyone before to be able to be submissive, and yet looking into his eyes in this second even though he isn't saying a word to me, he brings me to my knees. We hangout on video chat when we are working, even though we are busy its still a way to be together. I'm blogging and he has no idea what I'm writing as he is busy himself but I'm looking at him as I am typing and he really doesn't have a clue what hes doing to me. No clue how deep he is.
