This lifestyle can be all about the kinky fuckery, but 90% of the time it's about the pills, bills, and everything in between.
Life has come up swinging at Uus this season... and Wwe are still standing. A few days before I got on a plane I had to have one of those very real pills bills and everything in between conversations... I have a looonnnggggg family history of breast cancer. He has been aware of this from minute 1. We have long planned to have a reduction and reconstruction as a safety precaution. This was recommended for me 10 years ago and denied by my ex husband.
A few days before I got on a plane I was checking and just went "oh.... so THAT's what that feels like." I have dense tissue and fibrous tissue so I've always wondered if I was just "missing it"... no. No I was not. No, now I know exactly that there is no mistaking it. So I cried for a day and then brought it to Him and asked if I should stay where I was and seek treatment or if I should get on a plane. His answer was: "come home. I've got you."
I put it in a box for two weeks to finish the year and get home... we had a huge family event to do as soon as I landed. On the way home from the family event I let the jack in the box out and I fell apart. Wwe made an appointment for tomorrow at 9:00 am.
I do not think this is a bullet I'm going to dodge. I do not know what it means. I do not know where anything stands. The only thing I know is that He's got me and I've never been more grateful for that in my life.
Last week He was running a 5K beside me, jogging when I could, walking when I needed. Always behind me on the obstacles, his cousin who I pick as my family in front of me, the two of them supporting me all the way... this week is a very different race, but He is beside me all the same.
Prayers are appreciated. I'll check in when I'm capable of it. My mom had breast cancer 3x before it metastasized to her thyroid. She had her first lumpectomy at 16... her first BC diagnosis was 35. Every maternal aunt and female cousin.... so I really don't think this is a bullet I'm going to dodge. He needs every bit as much support as I do, and He is due every freaking respect for standing up and standing beside me.
Thank You for being the man You are. Today I don't have words further than "Thank You."
His slaveMikayla