Our long stretch apart for the year is OVER. W/we have so much to celebrate, so much to look forward to. The year has already brought so much life change.... so this is a BIG ANNOUNCEMENT.... last week with His help and support I won the next seemingly impossible battle, "big girl" is now an American citizen. This has been a long uphill battle, and it's incredible that it is over!
The trip I'm embarking on now is another step in a series of dominoes aimed at uniting our family for good. I have a very important meeting on Wednesday to sort out some government paperwork...if that goes well then the next step might be HUGE.
However all of that joy is mixed with a deep grief. My mother suffered a stroke near Christmas just as I was preparing for her granddaughter's citizenship process. At first she seemed okay, but on Dec 27th I effectively lost my mom. She is still breathing, but she is not there anymore. This trip was originally planned to spend time with her ( both of us) and it evolved to where His mom and dad were going to come with to meet her ( while they had the chance) sadly....that will not happen. I'm going to try to say goodbye to a mother who no longer knows me...but the important thing is, I'm not alone. He is with me, holding my hand.
My ex left me alone to fight these battles and it deeply damaged me...today I AM NOT ALONE. For that I will never be able to express my gratitude enough.
This trip will be everything rolled into one. It will be emotional and intimate and exciting and fun and terrifying, and tiring and rejuvenating and LIFE. It's life...and I love living it as HIS.
I Probably will not update this for a while as I will be absolutely focused on time together. He is so patient with the situations in my life, so while I'm with Him... there is no other focus.
Thank You for all of the ways You prove CONSTANTLY that You are NOTHING like anyone before You. Thank You for Your love.
His slaveMikayla, Delilah, Faith.