" I once tried to sell my soul to give her back. He just laughed and said why would I buy something that's mine already?"
With the help of Doc aka Betty our resident abnormal shrink who is helping us younger ladies understand some of sirs worries and questions. She help's us understand 1st men are not women in there thinking and 2nd Dom's are not sub's ether then add the fact the sir was old enough to be our father and went through a different time. It's no wonder we have trouble understanding his thinking at times.She at least comes from the same times as them. the above quote is from a later part of sirs diary just after an episode of losing his mind but even then he had good reason for losing it. with this in mind I shall try to put his critical thinking down faithfully but if there is an older Dom please comment if you can help us understand better. thank you Mari. P.S. this is hard to write in the first person so forgive me if it seems a little off.
When I turned around she was easy to spot it was probable the lighting were she was standing but her face was glowing. As I walked towards her she looked up at my face when I stood in front of her she just looked in my eyes not in defiance but searching for what was behind them then she just looked down. I leaned over her and whispered in her perfect little ear follow me. I put my drink down I herd her put hers down next to mine the glass clinked. We walked to the doors my car was out front where I parked it ( he owned part of the club) I opened the door for her she gazed at me for a second and took my hand to get in. we were several miles down the road when she turned to me and said we have to go back I forgot I brought my girl friend"s there I smiled and said OK I called my driver and told him to pick up two ladies at the club and take them wherever they wanted and take care of the bills give them to Dena to take care of you. I handed the phone to her and said call your girl friends tell them to look for a very tall man wearing a cap he vaguely resembles a small mountain complete with snow on top and answers to Mario. it was at this time I found out she had a daughter. this only gave me a small pause will she like me if not it could ruin everything. Oh well don't borrow problems before you have them. Her eye's got wide and and she said and she said what do I call you. for now call me James we will see later what else you can call me I reached into my pocket and gave her a card with the phone # and told her if they call to ask for the penthouse. then I over heard her say Jill when was the last time you heard of an ax murderer with a driver and a penthouse in N.Y.. yes I know but for some reason I he makes me feel safe.I toke my phone from her and called Dena and asked her to make arrangements at my home of record. that I was coming. and reserve a couple room on the floor below just in case and be there at 6 am.
It was then I had my W.T.F. moment I'm in my car going home with a woman I don't know I turned to look at her and she was leaning agents the door with the same look that I was hiding I smiled and said start at the beginning and tell me all your hopes dreams wants and needs and most important your fears. she smiled and said OK but remember you asked at the tunnel she slipped in a are you even paying attention or just faking interest? I said I'm listening to every word because this is important to me. her jaw drooped and then said it is? yes I replied everything about you is going to become the central purpose of my life I think. when she finally fell asleep around 2 a.m. I covered her naked body kissed her forehead and went to work in the other room until Dena arrived she sat and looked at me and I watched some of the fire leave her eyes as she said your in love aren't you does she know what you are yes I replied and before falling asleep she gave her consent and her life over to me. Dena this is a list of the things for her care that I can think of she is divorced with one daughter breast cancer survivor and proud of winning her fight see if you can customize any clothing she buys. we have that charity thing tonight so don't forget to get your gowns. I expect to walk in with two visions of perfection on my arm's she looked at me and said boss are you sure you want me there? yes something tell's me you two are going to be bests for the rest of your lives and something tells me at least for now she will need a friend instead of just an owner. Monday look into what town has the best schools and see what the housing situation is like minimum 4 bed and basement of need be buy two side by side and the two of you look them over and then call the architect to work on the plans. while i think now two houses would be better that way I can set up one basement for adults and a play room for her daughter on the other-side and make sure the back yard has plenty of room and four car garage it will be needed when her daughter starts to drive. I prefer to have one house for her to grow up in rather than up-sizing later. now I'm going to bed and sleep if you think of some thing I may have forgotten just get it or add it to the list. I'm going to bed now. and stood up. Boss, listen I have to tell you I am very happy that have found someone, but if she doesn't like me around I want to let you you know I release you from your vow. I looked at her and told her that's nice of you but I don't release you you will be by my side the rest of your life. but when you meet her I think you will see this woman is just a small package of love with more to spare.