Are you sure, I know it's what you want but is it what you need. These are the word's sir said to me after asking why he has not given me a collar. This was odd to me ever since I sobered up I had been owned of course it's what I need. but was it? Do I still need it true I feel better when owned, but do I need it to live like others only caring for themselves or loving just my husband and children thinking this was all it took. NO! being responsible for myself and others. This did not feel normal to me, no this was not what I wanted or needed well that took less time to write then it did to think through. Of course learning to cook helped me. You see being a cook is different then when you do it like a normal it's more involved then put water on to boil to do it right you must learn to cut the meat just right to maximize for flavor cut the vegetables at just the right point peel the potato's or cook the rice till its just right then you must learn what season or herb to use and when to add it and how much it all has a time and place ordered this is what I need order and Pease in my life not always having to think of consequences of a decision I make.
I can hear many out there saying what's wrong with this girl. Nothing is wrong with me it's just something I need this is the reason I work with Stacy she has the patience to work with me away from the kitchen she can handle me almost as well as sir, she can see when I push to hard and need a brake, and she is the reason I am doing this blog she is the one who helped me put into words the things I needed sir to see and understand. I am one of those people who will always need direction and a course to go in. Three months later when I cane back to sir I knew what to say and how to say it. He put his head down to think of how to say it, V I'm sorry you feel that way but I understand I will take you as a service sub but that is all can you live with that. That sir is all I want to be in service to the house I have no wish to be one of the ladies of the house. He reached down and pulled out a plain wolf head collar in silver and put it on me he hugged me and welcomed me into his service to the house he also gave me earrings in silver to show me as a house servant.
And that is how and why I became a servant to the house. 💋💋💋
