Spoiled? Yes but not rotten and pay back is sometimes a bitch. It was pointed out to me this last conclave just how spoiled I am. In both facets of my life do I deserve it I don't know but I do try to earn it.
Example my luck during my tour of service in the name of modesty I walked off the cleared path to pee, This resulted in me flying in the air with my pants down and peeing in front of my peers, my sergeant risking his life to come and get me and many months in the hospital. But in this I was lucky it was a pebble mine designed to cause damage but not kill all in the name of modesty. This was followed by a couple of years of abuse at the hands of my boss until the day they walked into the office and my life was transformed.
I and the others have blogged about that day so I'm not going go over that again. But that was the day I started to be spoiled. The following days being used to the way of the world I started looking for the bad side to the fairytale I found myself living in. Waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak. And do you know what I found that there are just some people who just try to make your life better, oh I was told when I fucked up and shown why and how and the lessons ranged from mild to what could be considered harsh but I learned. And I finally received my reward I became bonded to the most incredible group of people I ever found. All are eager to teach me what I need to know about my life and steering those who depend on me and us. I say steer not control because that is what sir taught me about people the secret is that people will resent an order but they gladly take help, as long as they accept that it's for there own benefit they will take it with a smile.
THE OFFER AND THE ACCEPTANCE
I was nude not even my foot was on me standing in front of his closed door. My dear friend, lover and mother standing in front of me looking me in the eye and asking me if this is what I truly want. And I tell her what else can I do I love him and I can not go without feeling him in my arms and feeling him in my body. I have come to need it like the air I need yes he is old but that means if I don't act now I may never know what you have or feel he must own me or I must leave because I can't take it any longer. We kiss chastely and I knock and wait he is on the phone when he hangs up he says enter. I close my eyes and offer a prayer and open the door hop in and close the door behind me get on my knees and crawl to the front of his desk to lay prostate in front of his desk. he waits then says what do you want of me Mari. I swallow and ask him in a voice to quiet to hear and so shaken that he raises his voice and says what is it little girl speak up so I repeat louder but with just as much fear in it. Sir I need you to take me to own me to love me as a women not as your employee. There is silence that felt like forever to me then I hear him speak to the intercom, jane come prepared to serve. And much faster then I expected she was there sitting next to me nude knees slightly apart to shoulder with hands folded in her lap palms up she must have taken her cloths off as soon as I came into his den. He said tell me what you know slut I saw her shiver at his words and then I smelt her arousal mix with my stench of fear and then I felt my arousal start. Sir this is what I know. She needs you and we need her we need her youth and her drive for the future of the house. This is what you want Jane for me to show her and teach her all about the business and being in submission to a house they way we are? Yes sir I do she is young enough to learn and mature enough to adapt to the needs. Mari sit and listen to me. Do you understand what Jane is asking you will for all intense giving your life to the growth and security of this house you are young and beautiful and soon wealthy and could do any thing do you really want to be tied to this chair until you find some one to pass it on to?
