Jane; 2/17/92
God what is happening to me Jane you bad girl you really enjoyed that, how could you lose control like that let him do that to you and why did you love it so much. I need this time alone and how did he know that? He told me last night that he would be gone all day today so why do I feel so empty when he is not here and in me filling me with both love and lust at the same time. First things first I have been bought at least my mind was. He put a contract in front of me and told me that even though he want's me personally he can not let the chance of being my partner in a company with me get away. He wants to buy me a company to manage and run and told me he will only demand that I care for the employees and reward them as the company grows. His reason for this is that he found that when people are shone to be valued many show their gratitude with loyalty and this make them treat work like they own it themselves. So I now have a new boss. He will own it for the first 5 years with a percentage of the profits going to paying for my ownership till I acquire 49% I will have a salary plus percentage from that point forward. All I ever wanted and a little more he pointed out that my daughter will need something to live and maybe run some day.
Later that day Dena came back and after kissing us both said wait till you see what I got us. She looked at Jim and said I know you paid but I bought it. We went into the bathroom and showered together we got quite intimate we were both humming when we got out and she showed me the bra was prefect she had taken and outline of my prostheses and the bra was a perfect fit for me she then showed me the best way to wear a garter belt and stockings we shaved each other and when I saw my self in the mirror I was shocked at how good I looked standing next to her she then started doing my make up and told me this is not the way you wear it for work but we are not going to work we are going to a party and our job is to make sir look like the luckiest man in the world witch he is by the way she stopped and suddenly got serious with me and said I am so glad he found you and I hope you come to love him as much as me but I hope you come to love me just as much and then kissed me gently. I just wanted to cry it was so heartfelt then she noticed and said don't you dare cry you don't need red eyes plenty of time for that later. During diner he made us both feel wanted and cherished I don't know how he could do that. We were both wearing the same design dress it was very modest in the front but the back was completely open from just under the bra to just over the hip 3/4 length slit on both sides and when we sat just a hint of stoking top showing she was in red and I in black. We looked hot.
When we arrived at the party and made the rounds he introduced us both me as the C.E.O. of his newest company and of course you know Dena and then he said now go circulate and have a good time he then left us alone and went over to the bar. Dena looked at me and said this is what he does people will come up to us and will find out what you do and the kind of company you have then she shocked me by telling me the company I now am expected to run was the company I was just working for and said thanks for letting sir know it could be bought rather then you starting from scratch at least this way you know what you and the company are capable of but be like sir and make no promises other then have them call you next week to meet over it. I had a very stimulating night and Dena was right some did try to make me make promises. But I did listen to what she told me and made appointments at my office not theirs. After all they wanted I did not know if I wanted.
When I went with Jim to his hotel yes he owns a very nice hotel between the theater district and the garment district in N.Y. his personal apartment on the top floor was done in old world style real wood fireplace gas that really did work old-style chairs over stuffed the place even had a greenhouse two bedrooms small kitchen but house kitchen room service as well. Dena asked me do you want him tonight? That's up to him isn't it. She looked at me and said oh my god you've never been involved with a gentleman either! Never mind a Dom have you? Let me tell you something a true gentleman never askes he waits for the lady to show or ask for his company that night and never assumes a rematch unless there is agreement that you wish to belong to him. and then you must understand your body will belong to him from that point forward is that what you want. let me tell you something about him he will satisfy you like no other man you have ever had, but unless he owns you he will not cum either in or on you. I know because the first time he had me I tried everything I could think of and he still did not give me what I wanted by the time I was done my pussy and ass an mouth were sore. when I was done and on the verge of tears I asked why I wasn't good enough he held me in his arms and explained he did not own me and he will only give himself completely to a woman he owns. She told me but I thought I could do it. I will tell you my dear diary I was wrong I am sore in places I never knew I had he made me feel my body melt lose all control of it all I could do was feel things that finally made me lose consensus till I woke this morning alone and feeling unfulfilled and sore as I am still wanting. So here is my dilemma dear diary do I give up being a liberated woman and feel incomplete or give control over myself to this man, what I do know is I need him god help me I need him like food and water an air to live and all he asks for this is everything I am.
this is long but Dena had brought her a laptop so at least it clear and easy to read, personally I know just how she felt because I felt the same how does a liberated woman become a sub and I have come to the conclusion it is all the Dom responsibility and depends on how much he respects you or how respected he make you feel. Jill
