"To Tread Where Eagles Dare Not"
Morning breaks on another day in my life, and yes, I am thankful for my health, and the wonderous blessings that have been my life's experience and path up to this day. And yet, this day is more empty than any I remember. For I have ventured into the lost caves of Xanadu, I have tasted the forbidden fruit, and found myself irresistibly drawn into the pursuit of The Holy Grail again. I have discovered parts of myself that I never knew existed. Like a fresh snow atop a thundering mountain range, parts of myself never before seen, never touched, only sensed, where no man has ever been, including me.
I have spent my life foolishly believing that I had tasted love's true power, the sense of belonging, the feelings of completeness and satisfaction, to only now learn that I had only seen but a glimpse of their true depths, and possessed merely a fraction of their totality, a mere sip from the chalice of life's blessings as it were. Were this mere fiction, a movie, a writing by some talented author, I could dismiss it and return to the man I was before. But this not the case, I have now seen it, tasted it, experienced a mere fraction of of it's endless possibilities, and I know the mountains are there, if I have but the courage to venture....
Because at the heart of the true Dynamic lies a power that defies comprehension. It is a bond forged from the very powers that enable creation itself, that fuel life, love, and true happiness. It binds two into one, with a trust so true, so complete, that there is no doubt. It is when two souls merge into one, where one has valleys, the other peaks, one weakness, the other strength. And the power the two create enshrouds them together in an envelope of impenetrable power. Where souls are bared, and secrets cannot linger. Where two people have revealed all there is to reveal, and are mutually accepted for who they truly are, where time has no meaning, age and beauty no relevance, both working to help the other overcome the pains and obstacles of the past allowing them to move forward in a future together, making stronger that which could not be stronger, with each healing moment.
This journey is not for the feint of heart. If you wish to possess it, it will come at a cost. You will be taken to the very precipice of your goal, only to find some imperfection that will prohibit your entry to the next level together, of which there are many. But it is at those junctures when you must decide ... can we continue our journey together, do WE stop and take the time to repair or create what we need to continue, stop and exist here imperfectly, or do we return the the beginning ...alone again.
Beware the demons of the past, and the dark angels deep in your soul. they will counsel you to abandon this attempt, fearful of the hurt and damage that can come with failure. Before you make that decision, get in touch with your heart, and express your fears or misgivings to the one who is on this journey with you, you may just find you will slay that demon or silence that dark angel by bringing them into the light, the light of your dynamic, and you will venture onto the next step together,
And if you are not yet on the journey, those same Demons and dark Angels will be ever present, albeit hard to discern from truth and the whispers of your own heart, telling you to dismiss one you may have seen a flicker of power in, yet dismissed because of age, race, or physical imperfections. At the core of each of us, these things do not really exist, they are physical representations of our existence, not reflections of our souls. One year of existence in the true dynamic may very well be worth more than a lifetime of living without it...
This is the path, this is the way... myself, I stand at the gate for now, waiting to begin the journey again ....