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My Journey Through Life: Vanilla and Non-Vanilla

where I express my thoughts, stories, opinions and more on my journey as being a sub and little will be presented. Most things will be on what I’m experiencing/experienced and if not it will be mention within the post. Thank you for reading~ ❤
5 years ago. October 12, 2019 at 2:03 PM

Halloooo Everyone!!!


I’m Princess Tae and this is my BLOG! 


As some of you may know I’ve been watching these BDSM videos on YouTube. I’ll be talking about my submissive style and What I understand about myself but before that. I would like to give you a bit of an update.


Some of you may know that I have a mentor well soon to be had as in past tense. This person even know gave me some good advice. I don’t want to be mentored by them because occasionally while talking to them I have been given these red flags. To myself I didn’t know if these red flags were actually red flags as when I’m in a certain situations I tend to overthink what’s going on and become nervous or fearful. 


So I’ve been given these red flags as It made me want to speak out and give input from someone else to understand what is going on for me. From more than one person the mentor I had is actually not a good mentor and some of the things they asked me weren’t supposed to be asked which is why the flag had raised in the first place. Also that some advice like a certain on based on DDLG. They had given bad advice as DDLG isn’t Ageplay but something that deals with the state of mind that brings inner self peace and joy. So at the moment I’m mentorless but I do talk to someone who has never asked me weird questions but was always there to just answer my questions on understanding or just curiosity. 


So that’s my little mini update on what’s going on with me in the BDSM world and now I will talk about my submissive side. 


So I do like to say that what sparked my curiosity about BDSM was indeed reading about DDLG and then it went into further levels and dynamics still all being read through books. Also in a previous post I mention that porn had played a part in me knowing about BDSM so for that it would be spanking and being tied up. I totally watched some harder kinky videos but that was to see and find out what kind of porn I myself was into and I can say it plays a part in what I want to experience and is willing to try in BDSM. 


Oof do you know how I say that I’m mentorless well I haven’t mentioned it yet to the supposed mentor and I will trust me because if I don’t this post definitely did. I don’t want to seem rude or anything. I did a last thing to ask them what they had planned on mentoring me on and stuff like that but after is when I realized from someone else they were already giving me clear red flags. 


Back to the topic at hand, Submissive style.


I realized while watching the video I’ll already been exposed and figured the most of my submissive style. As I mentioned before in a previous post that I'm interested in quite a bit of things. Which I won’t mention only because I would like to talk to it with a potential daddydom. If you understand. 


So I’m interested in things just haven’t tried them out to see if it’s true or not but I at least had given it some thought process and when I do get a daddydom they can help out with the real life process. 


I have a question to ask subs ( what was your beginning experience or journey to being submissive like?) or doms when with their first sub (what was your first experience or journey like dealing with a submissive for the first time?) 


If you would like to tell me you can comment or message me. (Doms please make sure to tell me what the intentions were of messaging me within the subject part of the message because I’m doing this thing where I may not even open or not to be rude but just… yeah you know.


Song of the post: Do It For Her"

(from "Steven Universe Soundtrack: Volume 1" soundtrack)


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[Pearl:]

Remember, you do it for him

And you would do it again

You do it for her

That is to say

You'll do it for him


Keep your stance wide

Keep your body lowered

As you're moving forward

Balance is the key

Right foot, left foot

Now go even faster

And as you're moving backwards

Keep your eyes on me

[Connie:] Keep my stance wide

[Pearl:] Good

[Connie] Keep my body lowered

[Pearl] Right!

[Connie:] As I'm moving forward

[Pearl:] Concentrate!

Don't you want him to live?!

[Connie:] Right foot, left foot

[Pearl:] Yes!

But put your whole body into it!


Everything you have

Everything you are

You've got to give

On the battlefield

When everything is chaos

And you have nothing but the way you feel

Your strategy, and a sword

You just think about the life you'll have

Together after the war

And then you do it for her

That's how you know you can win

You do it for her

That is to say

You'll do it for him


Deep down, you know

You weren't built for fighting

But that doesn't mean you're not

Prepared to try

What they don't know

Is your real advantage

When you live for someone

You're prepared to die

[Connie:] Deep down, I know

That I'm just a human

[Pearl:] True

[Connie + Pearl:] But I know that (I/you) can

Draw my sword and fight


[Connie:] With my short existence

[Pearl:] Good

[Connie:] I can make a difference

[Pearl:] Yes, excellent!

[Connie:] I can be there for him

I can be his knight

I can do it for him

[Connie + Pearl:] You do it for her

[Pearl:] Okay, now do that again

[Connie:] Yes, m'am!

[Pearl:] You do it for her

And now you say

[Connie:] I'll do it for him


Thank you for reading!! 


Hugs and Friendly Kisses~ 


Tae❤️

 

P.s. mini mini update I told them and not in a rude way. I said things along the lines of I don't need them as a mentor that I started to feel uncomfortable and that I hope they understand but I also said thank you to the advice that was a bit helpful. 


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