A Recovering Pick-me

Is the fact that I want to feel free like a bird but I want to be dominated at the same time. Like… I feel like that’s two different things entirely. And sometimes I feel like I want to be dominated because I lack direction, so if I was a person that had more direction, that was more firm in my decision-making, would I still want to be dominated…taken…by someone? Completely? Or am I meant to be a free bird and soar the skies…? 

I dunno ?‍♀️ I guess I’ll come back to this question in a year or two. As they say…

”Time will tell”