So i keep asking myself where I am going? What am I doing to get there?
I know I'm digging deeper into me, who I am and what I need? What I need from myself
And my future Dom what I need for myself and my future dom?. I am so much closer to whole then I have been in a very long time. I still have so much more to learn, always so much more to learn : about myself and about the lifestyle.
I'm stepping out of my vanilla and lifestyle comfort zones and trying to meet new people. I am realizing I am even more socially awkward than I used to be. People make peopling so hard sometimes. But key one step at a time right? Celebrate each victory.
I am trying to focus on each step in my journey right now. I am trying to articulate what dominance and submission mean to me-i am developing a mantra to help center myself when times get tough or the exhaustion of having to be dominant in life starts to wear on me. Because you would be surprised how negative self-talk can be. So I'm thinking the mantra will help with that too. (Shoot is I come up with it before Thanksgiving maybe it will be tolerable and help maintain sanity.)
If you read this far thank you!
Meli
