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Letters from the Edge of Tolerance

This is where I document life lived with CPTSD, ADHD, DID, OCD, abandonment trauma, rage, and the long term psychological consequences of instability. Not for sympathy. Not for inspiration. For examination.

I write about trauma the way a mechanic tears down an engine. Piece by piece. What broke. Why it broke. What it still does under stress.

You will find poems that bleed without asking to be saved. Essays that dissect ethical BDSM, power exchange, dominance, consent, and responsibility without romantic illusion. Reflections on betrayal, identity, dissociation, religion, rage, control, and the uncomfortable mathematics of trust.

This is not a healing space. It is an honest one.

I do not frame survival as beautiful. I frame it as necessary.

If you are looking for optimism, look elsewhere.

If you want unfiltered analysis from someone who has lived at the upper edge of tolerance for decades and still functions, read on.

Existence is not always a gift.

Sometimes it is a condition.
5 years ago. Monday, July 6, 2020 at 6:39 AM

Im going to drop chapter 3 now with some added insight to my own personal beliefs, and everyone will be able to chime in with thier own opinion on it.

 

FAITHFULNESS

 

Now by definition it is someone who is loyal and reliable, steady or firm in thier actions based by belief.

On the other hand what does it have to do in the world of BDSM? What does it mean to us? Well i am going to answer this as simply as i can but also explain it.

 

So Faithfulness can mean different things to different people, someone who is monogamous would see Faithfulness differently than someone  who is polygamous. But between the two they have a similar meaning.

 

Now my grandaddy told me faithfulness is a oneway road where your true to one woman, the one you love. However i have come to learn that isnt exactly the whole truth to it. You see i have a philosophy that i live by, I will look comment and gawk (so have you) at other women, but my heart belongs to my lover (no questions asked). As long as my heart comes home it never strays. So what do i mean? And why can i say that? 

 

Well as a human like we all are we are bound by our primal insticts and that includes lust; I dont care who you think you are we all have looked and been like yea id tap that; lust is nothing but a base urge to procreate life, thats it. However we live in a world now where we dont have to worry about birthing many children, so we have become selective. And thus we lust after beautiful people(we all have the one famous person we want to fuck) but love our partners. 

 

I say this because it is often misinterpreted to be oh yea I am only going to have eyes, heart, soul and everything else for my partner, when we all know that never is the truth, however with that primal instict of lust, faithfulness comes in and says "no i am not going to sleep with that person because that would be wrong." 

 

Cheating is never ok, whether in a polyamourous relationship or a monogamous one, cheating can happen and it is NEVER ok. Period. Yes it can and does happen in both. 

 

I will go further and say that FAITHFULNESS  is even a strong point, and i would throw it into the group of being a foundation trait of a D/S relationship. There is so much that can honestly be said on this subject that i could probably go on for hours on end, but thats not what the intent here is. I want everyone who reads this to gather one thing, be faithful to your partner whether your a submissive or a dominant, be faithful and never cheat, your heart should always go home to your lover.

(DISCLAIMER: This is excludeing those who fall into swingers, traders/swappers, and those who explore this world with permission of their lover.)


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