Well ill start put with this, the best way to describe myself would be the classic broken heart story on crack. And before you ask I will tell you, but believe me what I'm about to say is the absolute truth.
At the age of 18 I married the woman of my dreams she was kind, loving, and bright. I was happily married and committed to it. She, I later found out, wasn't. You see she started to cheat, which by that time I was used to, cause nice guys finish last right? But you see she didn't just cheat, it wasn't with some guy i didn't know, nope not even with my best friend which would have been easier to deal with. No she cheated on me with my dad. The man who gave the sperm for my creation stole my wife.
You see since then my self esteem and confidence has been broke even my will to live was damaged severely. So in turn i suffer from fits of depression, fits of anxiety, fits of suicidal tendency. Well instead of listing all of what's wrong with me just pull the book out and throw it at me. Then lets wrap it up with childhood PTSD, and PTSD from war. Yep that's right I'm kind of a basket case.
Do i believe in love yes, do I believe in love at first sight hell no. Why? Because that shit is fairytale bullshit. I am a realist, I am kind ;to a damn fault; i am honest ;brutally so; I am an asshole, and i have mood swings based on the day. But no-one will ever know it. Why? Because I spent my whole fucking life hiding my own issues. I see it like this it is easier for me to feign my happiness then to actually have it, cause every time I actually am happy whelp it gets ruined. So I see it like this, I will be the most self seeking person I can, because no-one, I mean no-one seeks me. So I'll seek myself and I am ok with it.
But lets say some more about myself, I help any who need it. I am a druid by religion, and I clam balanced between ego and confidence. I always have good remarks about my looks though my thoughts may be different. I am a nerd/geek, and am a sapiosexual. I firmly believe knowledge is power and ignorance is not bliss. There is no excuse to be fat. Now before any of you get offended, I don't kink shame and I don't body shame. There is a difference, when I say fat I mean obese. You see there is no excuse to be morbidly obese. Its ok to be plump, and its ok to be self conscious of your weight. Hell I am self conscious of my weight, do to various medical troubles I have, I am required to intake close to 1200mg of sugar a day.
So why am I writing all this? Well it seems easier to write it here than to write it in the "about me". You can learn more about a person based of the blogs they post, so screw it I wrote it here. But I will tell you this much, nothing about me is normal, and I am rather weird and playful at times. But before I end this I will point this bit out, to anyone who can honestly and committedly date me for seven years might find me proposing to them, but not before then.