Its a bitter pill to swallow when you realise you have made a serious mistake. The kind of mistake that changes your life.
My mistake seemed innocent at first. I was inconsistent. I didnt enforce the rules at all times. They were of my own creation after all but somewhere along the line I forgot how important they were to my partner. How much she relied on them to feel safe and secure.
Only too late did I realise the damage Ive caused. Unfortunately we could not move past it but I learnt my lesson in the hardest of ways. Its etched into my mind. Well and truly internalized.
Ive grown as a result. I am becoming a better dominant and a better man.
You have to hold yourself responsible for these things if you want to be responsible for others.
Now I take things slow and steady. I look at what rules are important to me and why.
Most of all, I understand their purpose now.