Not my normal self fam
Feeling down and depressed 😔. Beast gets mad at me when I talk bad about myself. I feel lost and useless. Beast got me a beautiful violin for Christmas. I have always wanted to play and he said I need a hobby. Now I am teased by my children and don't want to do it anymore. I have no hobbies and because I only work 4-5 hours a day doing Amazon Flex I have alot of free time. My mind wonders to all the terrible things that happen last year. Not going to rehash just read back through my blogs if you need to catch up. I always look to my community for support. You all have been in my corner more that anyone in the vanilla world...even my own family. I just want to dissappear from this world. 😩 it's not the same anymore. My dynamic is even suffering. Beast is great and will crawl over broken glass for me....I just feel like I am in my own private hell. 😭😭😭😭
Indigo
