This will be me talking about the pressure to fit in the community.
Me personally have a hard time dealing with many people at once. I need to build a individual connection. So I don't spend much time in the chat room. Since it messes with my mind.
But I want to be able to talk with people still. Discuss bdsm and differing opinions.
Opinions.. I have different ones. I see these posts. Bloggs and discussions. And I feel that I am not free to disagree in some cases. Since I don't feel like I belong in the community to begin with. Individually I can disagree with anyone. Individually I can voice all my thoughts as I feel I have just as much part in the conversation. But group mentality frightens me beyond measure. I have a different frame of mind.
And not being understood. Or simply not being able to convey what I wish to say is something frightening. When I make a mistake or if I'm not understood in a conversation. I can explain myself. I get to rephrase or add to what got misunderstood.
But with multiple people misunderstanding multiple things.. or me incorrectly voicing my opinion to multiple people. It suddenly becomes a witch hunt.
This however is my attempt to take part in this community. Although a small step. I wish to practice what I preach. This is me exposing myself.