And oh, what a difficult question that can be to answer.
Some desire power, others fame and fortune.
"I want to be president!"
"I want to be an actor!"
"I want to be a quadruple bazillionaire!"
(Don't we all ??)
...Some just desire to be desired.
To be known is to be loved, and all I have ever desired is just that - to be known, and still be loved because of and despite it.
I make an effort to learn the people I care about because, to me, that is one way to express love. Not romantic love, but the most basic, pure, human-to-human soul-connection love.
I want you to know that I care. I want you to know how valued you are. I want you to know how much I cherish your presence in my life.
I want you to know that your existence on this Earth means something to someone.
To be known is to be loved, and I have never really felt known.
I've had friends who I loved with everything I had. I knew their favorite color, their favorite movie, the name of their childhood pet and every family member two generations back, their deepest fears, their greatest wish, and what they had for dinner three weeks ago.
They didn't even remember my birthday.
To be known is to be loved, so why doesn't anyone care enough to know me?
All I have ever wanted is to have someone in my life who knows me.
Who cares enough to have paid attention to what types of food I pick at a restaurant and could order something I'd like without my input.
Who knows how I like my tea and coffee, and took note that I almost always drink them iced.
Who can tell when I'm not feeling well because my smile looks ever-so-slightly different, and I haven't opened the curtains.
Who knows how I loathe making phone calls and will step in to do it for me when they can, just to spare me from such a horrid fate.
Who knows that my music taste changes depending on what mood I'm in.
Who knows that I long for someone to feel protective of me and not be reluctant to show it.
Who remembers my birthday.
I desire to be known. I desire to be shown that I matter to someone.
So now I ask - what do you desire?
