In a recent dream, a woman ran away from an estate. She had been reported missing by the estate, so when she was found, the police returned her to the estate from where she had recently escaped. This incident was unnoticed by almost everyone.
She was later found murdered. Then her escape and murder made the news and caught the public’s attention.
This was followed by an image of walking in a swamp and coming across used bicycle tires mounted on poles in the four directions around a house. At the top of each tire was a keystone shape piece off cloth with a sigil (symbol) facing outward. Dream me thought, “Cool protective sigils.”
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We have a woman, unprotected from her enemies and protective symbols.
it was at this point i realized I had had unprotected sex the night before.
You would think I would have more awareness, but I had kept myself fully clothed, there was no penis in vagina and we had agreed A week before that if we had sex she had condoms suitable for PIV penetration.
As a person who has only practiced serial monogamy, normally in long-term loving relationship. As a man who had a vasectomy decades ago and talks with potential partners about STDs, I don’t give sexually transmitted diseases much thought. I’ve never had one. I rarely have sex, so I don’t think about it.
What had happened was a woman friend who I had been kissing frequently and was half in love with let me eat her pussy for about 20 minutes.
i was a little nervous, it had been about 7 years, and I’ve never really had the opportunity to dive in, be in a comfortable position, and take my time before. For some reason the first time she said “Oh my god!” I glanced at the clock. She repeated this phrase several times a minute for awhile until I stopped and noted the time as 17 minutes later.
I’ve never kept score during sexual activity before, but there is a first time for everything.
She offered unsolicited praise and mentioned multiple orgasms a couple of times that evening, so it seems I can please at least one woman one time. That is reassuring.
We had consensual relations, I didn’t really think of it as sex, though obliviously it’s a form of sexual activity. I didn’t think of health risks, so it was definitely not Risk Aware Consensual Vanilla (RACV doesn’t have the same acronym value as RACK, does it?)
- back to the dream.
we have danger (risk)
we have danger associated with a woman
we have an unprotected woman
we have a stick and a round opening (potential sexual connotations)
we have bicycle tires in an Ouroboros shape (the snake eating its own tail) with the whole sexual transformative energy connotations of the tail of the snake entering the mouth of the snake
we have sigils for protection
we have a keystone shape, the element that adds stability and safety to an arch
we have “key” in the word keystone - a probable pun
we have swamp directly related to something this woman said the night before The dream
- - - bottom line - - -
It’s time to get serious about protection.
My conscious mind knows this is wise, but doesn’t do it.
Risk Aware requires awareness
10 days after this dream, this local woman ghosted me. I gave her a few days, but she’s getting out in the world, and didn’t want to see me in it, and has offered no explanation to me while hinting to others.
We are done, so maybe she is also the dead woman in the news
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I am not outing her in any way, we were never publicly seen together.
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After all this focus on sexual protection, my biggest need for protection was Emotional.
I fell hard for her, before this sexual play. She offered me friends with benefits which I reluctantly accepted as the best I could have with her. She withdrew that offer when she ghosted me.
This is the 6th woman in my life that I have fallen hard for - the feeling sucks. Given the way she ended it, I’m getting over this one pretty quickly. .
