Back in my teens, the hubris and sense of destiny in my dreams was a factor that scared me into turning off my dreaming.
(Another factor was Flying/astral planing dreams and my best friends mother, formerly confined in Bergen Belsen concentration camp, stepping out of a second story window because she believed she could fly.)
this recent dream demonstrates the hubris
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Friday, January 31 dream High Priest & Priestess
I have been conscious for about a week. In that time, I meet a fascinating woman, The High Priestess, who explains that I am one of a few beings who travel together through time together, die, reincarnate, and quickly find each other. We have, as a group, a special purpose. In my week of awareness, I Have more than half fallen in love with the High Priestess, whom I think of as Queen to my King
My purpose is to be the High Priest who leads a ceremony with the High Priestess by my side.
In the ceremony, one member of the gathering is selected and honored. That member shares something with the gathered beings and we leave the evening having learned. This is all I know as I attend the first ceremony.
All of of us gathered may have one or more of many abilities, including myself and my Queen.
My Queen May also have objects. If she carries a razor, she becomes a candidate for sacrifice, but I don’t know that, I am freshly reincarnated
In the ceremony, the person destined to be the executioner is selected, because my queen has the razor, when he stands beside us to speak of his ability and share with those gathered, the speaker accepts the razor from the queen and immediately cuts her wrists. She stands and bleeds out, sacrificed, and dies.
I take no action, the pieces that came together, her ability, the razor, and the selection of the executioner, these pieces that change the ceremony are explained to me as Igrieve. She comes back immediately after I grieve. And I find her. She comes back without the ability, or the razor blade, or knowledge of her role - while my only ability Is that I love her. My only understanding is what I have learned this lifetime.
I don't know whether we meet once a month once a year once a lifetime (my waking brain tells me once a moon.)
I can enjoy my Queen and High Priestess because I love her. She doesn’t have her razor or her special ability, so I can woo and enjoy her, hopefully for many moons.
She reincarnates with no clue. I am still in my previous incarnation. I know what may happen. I know that the time may come when she has a special ability and the razor, that she will be sacrificed again. But she comes with a lesser ability, and in that lesser ability there is a blessing because I will not have to sacrifice her.
She doesn't have the ability and yet I believe that at some point she may develop the ability but it will be after developing a series of other abilities. My only ability is that I love her, and I know this is a special ability of great significance. It is what I must have to make her sacrifice more than just another sacrifice. It is part of the sacrifice spell which fulfills our group destiny.
I'm not really sure of the future, but my queen and I could have a long life together until we reach the point in which it all comes together, our group destiny is fulfilled - and then the world will change.
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I’m still sitting with my dream interpretation, but the initial symbolism tells a simple tale of Jungian Integration.
(I have been conscious for about a week.)
I am a Newbie, RL dreaming for about a week)
The High Priestess is my anima- my symbolic feminine side and the chief element of my unconscious that wants to integrate with my conscious psyche.
I travel together with a collective, a tribe of shadow selves that represent my total unconscious mind.
I am loving and bonding to my anima and shadow selves. I am beginning to love the unconscious me.
(My purpose is to be the High Priest who leads a ceremony with the High Priestess by my side.)
My purpose is to lead my anima and shadow selves to become an integrated tribe/ self
In teach dream, shadow knowledge is shared.
Early in life I severed connection to my dream selves
My dream selves are still here with me, still willing to share and integrate into a more aware psyche, as long as I don’t cut off connection again
Loving and embracing my anima is my destiny
Integration changes everything
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Doing the research to understand the dream, one can read a lot of what I just typed on Wikipedia. I have been exposed to these ideas, but was not aware of them.
my unconscious told me this is their plan, and I agree with the plan.
In cosmic synchronicity, my estranged wife suggested we change our plans and explore a conscious, mutual arrangement where share our lives again. her initial thoughts include outlets for me to be kinky and have sexual liaisons outside our relationship, but not be truly polyamorous - basically a limited license to sow my wild oats come back to her.
We don’t know the long term goal, and plan to take several months to negotiate something.
As one might expect, this has led me into evaluating what I want in sex and kink within the context of a primary relationship, and for awhile a long distance primary relationship, with my wife.
I.e. What do I really want?
Given these musings, I am no longer actively open to long-term relationships with other women. I’m not looking.
