lilbrattybutterfly(sub female)

Aftercare

The aftercare music on the speakers in the dungeon wafts through to the playroom, mixing with His light snores that happen during the nap after He cums. My body is deliciously sore on every hole from being well used by Him. I smile as I can still feel the lashes from every implement He used on my shoulders. My back, my ass, my thighs and a few well-placed lashes on my pussy. He knows how to make my body sing. He knows how to make my brain soar into the height of liquid nothingness. He knows the sounds, the touch, the commands my body and brain crave... need...

He stirs softly in His light slumber, but its only to reach out and pull me closer, my head now resting on His chest. He can tell my brain is working too hard, especially after and impact scene and a thorough fucking. My runs His hands lazily down my back, lingering at certain spots that He knows He paid extra attention to during impact. I smile into His chest, my heart soaring as we continue to fly through the air together, slowly coming down from our high.

All too soon, our time together will be over. He will return to His life and me to mine. I will keep with me, though, our time and some well-placed marks... until next week when we will meet again.

What do I do with them now?

2 years ago. September 12, 2022 at 4:00 AM

The relationship ended and my play collar was returned to me, in the box that He had made for me with my name on it. So what do I do with it now? It's not like I'm ever going to wear it again. I can't even look at it right now so it's buried in the back of my closet. What do I do with it though? It's 2 artists' craftsmanship. I cannot return the box - I have no clue where that came from. The collar - I ordered it - I know where it came from. Do I mail it back to Him and explain why I'm returning it?

Someone told me that I should destroy the collar and the box and put them into a fire. Make it a cathartic release... but I cannot bring myself to destroy someone's art. I just cannot do that - I think that would hurt more than the cathartic release of getting rid of the implements. *sigh* so... what do I do with them now?

For now, they sit in the back of the closet, gnawing at my brain and my heart - mentally reminding me that they are there and him still renting space in my brain... What do I do with them now?

SirsBabyDoll(sub female){Pizza+☕} - Mine is in storage, along with all the other bits and pieces pertaining to him.

Don't forget the love. The love was given freely, so while the pain is there, so is the memory of love.

2 years ago

dollMaker(dom male) - The million dollar question, with just as many answers. There are many ways to do this and ultimately it must be what works for you, what sits right with you. Right now, I think do nothing, until the rawness, sharpness of the pain have eased.

For myself, I have done a number of things over the years. My first dynamic, in which a collar was given, both were destroyed. It ended suddenly, despite my best efforts, and my understanding back then was that traditional views strongly leant towards cutting in two or destroying a collar after a dynamic was over. That was what I did, and where I am now, I regret that. That first dynamic still means a lot to me, but alas I have nothing bar a few photos, memories only. Since then I have allowed involvements to keep, what means most to them, not asked for items to be returned. There will be no future destruction of anything.

I am a sentimental soul, so mementoes for me are important, even if there is pain, hurt in their story.

I hope you find a way that works for you, and healing.

2 years ago

AdamDragon(dom male) - In My opinion, keeping your well being in mind, I would send them back. Out of sight out of mind. Collaring is serious and it actually belongs to him, it is his choice to destroy it or not. I hope this gives you the peace you need. 🌹

2 years ago

sexycurves(sub female) - While you're feeling a bit all over the place, I'd suggest that you do nothing with the collar and the box. Leave it until you're thinking a bit clearer, feeling stronger and then you'll be able to make a decision that you won't regret.

2 years ago

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lilbrattybutterfly​(sub female)

Aftercare

What do I do with them now?

lilbrattybutterfly(sub female)