There is something that just speaks to your soul when someone takes a moment to consider your feelings and take some of their time to send you just warmth and a message of encouragement and reassurance.
That is deeply appreciated. You want to internalize and hold onto it. Savour that taste and enjoy the moment for what it could mean. For a potential unlike any other. Because there could be no other person that could replicate how that one person makes you feel in that moment.
The thing is when we look into our past, when we try to see what's going on behind those curtains of why we were and how we acted. You can recognize certain behaviours and how those relationships impacted you for better or worse.
One thing I struggle with is jealousy. I don't like to be jealous because it makes me feel like garbage. My thoughts turn to poison and everything about myself can become negative. I used to be jealous that "You got to experience something cool with someone cool". I hated being left out of the loop so to speak. I'm slowly realizing that the past gets left behind and we only this moment and this time to contribute to the lives of those around us. Whether as a friend offering a shoulder to cry on, a friend to laugh with or something more significant. Maybe a serious point of trauma from your past, or a talk about your relative that has a critical condition.
The thing is we all have stuff. Each moment is just another needle weaved into the tapestry of our lives. It's just what you can exude to those you interact with. Offer your best self today.
But guess what happens when the sun goes down? You get another shot to be your best self. Hopefully, unless it's your last breath. In which case why not go out doing something you love with joy and exuberance in your soul?
Live life fully. Enjoy the food you eat, the exercise you choose to do (or not). Learn to enjoy all the things necessary to live life.
Anyways, no massive ramblings today. Just working on my self, *hanging* out, enjoying who I am.
Hope you all have a superb day.