Well hello again friends,
First a disclaimer:
*Cannabis was used in the making of this blog
I took some time today to sit in darkness to try and find my sound that I can create. I have begun to hear from a friend that I should look into voice acting. So in an effort to get over the idea of fear stopping me I have recorded myself and hope to continue to make one each day especially as I have the beginning of my glorious 8 day weekend.
This can be time to be productive as I currently have nothing planned, but I'm just going to see where things take me. Most likely around my house to take care of the things that require my attention.
Eight days is enough time to organize and get things sorted in my life because it has been tumultuous.
As much as I see tremendous growth in my personal life I currently am weighed down with crushing debt, and it very likely will change the landscape of my future. I still haven't had a chance to find out exactly what will happen but that's because I've been finding ways to make myself fail.
I sabotage myself when I choose not to believe in my ability.
Now that we are caught up just a tiny bit with my personal life, the reason I actually decided to write this thing.
Space.
So there are a fair few definitions based upon this word but the way I want to direct your attention is summarized best with this definition:
5. The freedom and scope to live, think, and develop in a way that suits one.
"a teenager needing her own space"
The thing is people live busy lives. Each one of us has our own way of handling life. We all see things differently even to the way we interact with our bodies and those around us.
I want to touch on the idea that sometimes people need time and area to themselves.
My ex is currently my roommate for a short duration, although because of aforementioned financial situation my living situation could very well drastically be changing. Which would throw everything into a bit of insanity. I'm trying my best, but organizing and planning are not my personal strong suits. I'm very weak in this area.
The thing is she has a date tonight, and is spending the night out. This gives me my entire house back. And which is why in part I also felt comfortable recording myself tonight because I was alone.
Which leads me into this whole idea and concept of space and why it's important.
*Oh man, when you completely forget where you are in your house because you are so engrossed in what you are doing. Plus it's really dark outside and the light from my phone blinds me a bit to my surroundings*
(I was standing in my kitchen but when I looked up from my phone I was disoriented about my location in my house)
Sometimes you need your own area. There are moments when perhaps life is coming at you because a close family member was injured while working. Or you might be losing your house. Things go sideways all the time. It takes focus and attention to remain on course. Sometimes the best thing you can do for someone to add value to their life is to simple let space exist. Room for the other person to handle what is in front of them. Space for them to handle a hard day because they won't be able to communicate and it will be more of a burden than a benefit.
The thing is there are all sorts of reasons to need space. But you have to understand when to give it, and when you need it yourself.
I always seek to add value to those I interact with. It doesn't matter in what way that looks like. So if I can add value by respecting your space, and giving you the area you need to operate and handle your business. Because guess what? I have my own mess to attend to. I need to remain focused on my peril, because that is immediately important to ME.
So with this time I hope to not only still give you the warm comfort of my embrace when you request it but the space you need outside of our interaction.
I just need to ensure that I properly utilize my time when allowing space so that I can be benefiting my own life by adding value to me. Taking care of the responsibility of my life, and taking ownership of my responsibility.
The thing is action is required to fulfill these words. And at this point words are meaningless. It requires action. Whether that action is stepping back and allowing space, or handling yo shit, or however that might look.
But space is essential. It's very important within an interaction.
Just some sentiment I wished to convey this evening.
Be well.
