What's Going On?

As I wake from an early, unexpected slumber, thoughts of new experiences run through my mind. It is now three hours into nothing but racing thoughts of being catfished, stood up, realizing limits, and what if's. It is true that I am new to this lifestyle, yes. But I am not new to the world of fakeness, lies, horny men just trying and saying whatever they think you want to hear, and most of all I'm not new to bullshit. As I search for my Dom, I have realized that although I am submissive, I am not weak. As a sub, I expect my Dom to be aware of this fact. I'm not going to be a dumb little bitch that instantly allows myself to be dominated. I need to know I can trust them with my life first. Friendship is the foundation of any relationship so that is essentially what I am looking for as a starting point. Honesty and opening up to each other is key.