Bitter rejection

If i was different...

If i wasn't raised as i was..

If i wasn't awake...

If i saw things as others....

If i was patient....

If i didn't care....

If i didn't have pain...

If that didn't hurt...

If there were no lies...

If i could do what i want....

If i didn't believe...

If words had meaning....

If i saw her eyes...

If i read minds....

If i ever made sense....

If i knew when to not speak.. 

If i ate tomatoes...

If i was dead....

If i understood...

If rain wasn't wet...

If gramma had balls...

She would be grampa...