When I first started on this journey there were many questions that I had two were “would my virginity be a roadblock” “would the fact that I prefer more mature men be an issues” both seem to clash with each other. In the conversation that I’ve had it seems like because of the maturity they either A don’t want to go through the training process or B don’t want to wait a long period of time. So I ask myself should I go into the vanilla world and gain experience how much experience is enough experience? If I believed BDSM was solely sexual than I would but for me I want that bond I want that connection and patience is not easy but I’m convinced it’s worth it. Am I wrong maybe but that’s what life is about ups and downs, trial and error. I wanted to try online first because I’m such an introvert and social encounters are extremely hard for me. So per a different site I was invited to a play party this coming Sunday and although the thought of it causes my breathe to catch and heart to race, I’m going to try and go and see what happens.
Thinking out loud...
