The other day I had an epiphany. I couldn’t believe I never realized it. I had been very depressed lately over a relationship that didn’t work out and in a sense I blamed myself. It’s very easy to blame yourself. You start wondering if maybe there’s something wrong with you. But there isn’t. I’m good enough the way I am and the other person is good enough too. It’s neither my fault nor the other person’s. We just weren’t the right one for either of us no matter how much we wish it was so. I believe that in life you will meet a lot of people that feel like the right one but aren’t. You will wish to try your best to keep them with you because deep inside you are scared that they really are the right one for you and that if they leave you will be alone. But they aren’t the right one. The right one will match your personality perfectly and won’t leave you. They will stick with you through the good and the bad. They will be your best friend, your lover and your pain in the butt. But you will adore all that about them. They will make you laugh and smile even as you want to strangle them. But the most important is that they will never leave you. They will work with you through everything. They will be willing to compromise and so will you. Because if only one side can compromise there’s no point. Having come across this the resentment I had towards this person was just gone. I stopped trying to message him and never getting a reply back. Having my messages read but never replied despite him wanting to still remain friends. I simply stopped. I’m not willing to try and be friends or anything with someone that won’t even try. The hatred and hurt I felt when I thought of him is just gone. I know he just wasn’t right for me and I wasn’t right for him. Maybe the time wasn’t right or maybe the distance wasn’t right. Who knows. Coming across this feeling made me write a song that released so much of the anguish I had been carrying inside me for almost a full month. My depression is also thankfully wrong after I told myself to stop being an idiot. Yes, I had to tell myself to not be an idiot and concentrate on things that matter. Now, without further ado, I present you my epiphany song!
Not the right time
We met at times
That might not have been right
I felt you were right for me
But you did not feel the same
And it caused a lot of pain
Looking back I now can see
That this is not your fault or mine
We were just not the right one for either one
There’s no reason to think
That we aren’t good enough
Because we are
Just not for each other
And I know we will in time
Find the right one for us
And we will both be happy
And smile about the past
I’ve been so down
Wondering if I messed up
And not finding a reason
I asked you why
And you said the distance won’t work
Even when I wanted to try
I believed for a while
I just wasn’t good enough
But I know it’s not my fault
You just weren’t good for me now
And I wasn’t good for you
There’s no reason to think
That we aren’t good enough
Because we are
Just not for each other
And I know we will in time
Find the right one for us
And we will both be happy
And smile about the past
Maybe if there wasn’t distance
We could have worked
As that was our biggest issue
But I still believe we just weren’t meant to be
Even if the times were different
We would have eventually split
And I don’t blame you
You are good enough
Just not for me
And I know I’m good enough
Just not for you
I won’t let this bring me down
I’ll keep moving forward
And I’ll always remember the time we had
There’s no reason to think
That we aren’t good enough
Because we are
Just not for each other
And I know we will in time
Find the right one for us
And we will both be happy
And smile about the past
I truly wish
The best for you
I wish for you
To find someone right
I will stop the messages
I can tell you don’t want to talk
And I’m ready to move on
I wish you...
Luck in love
