Some time ago I took the Briggs Myers personality test and honestly was not surprised by the result. I’m INTP. What this means is that I’m more prone to thinking instead of feeling. It doesn’t mean I don’t have emotions, I do and I have taught myself through the years to try and empathize more but it’s not always easy. My mind always tries to think rationally and analyze everything from different points of views. While this is perfect in a work environment it’s not always good for relationships. I always have to stress the fact that I will sometimes appear cold and maybe dense when it comes to a more emotional side. Its also not always easy for me to form a connection with someone. Since I like thinking more than feeling I always try to look for someone who is smart and keeps my mind engaged and I can have lengthy conversations with but I also look for someone I can fall deeply and madly in love with. The problem with love and me is that my emotions are extremely strong and aren’t always shared. When I truly care about someone I will do everything I can to make them happy, I’ll be willing to wait for them for as long as I have to if they need time, I’ll be there through the good and bad and guide them through it, I’ll protect them from anything and everything(even from themselves). This though can make me a bit intense and sometimes scary for many subs as I will be on them constantly to turn them into someone they are proud of and won’t bow to anyone except me of course.
Now then, talking bout INTP. Although I’m an introvert it doesn’t mean I can’t be an extrovert. I do rather be home than outside but I do go out clubbing and will dance and have fun and be loud and wild. I also absolutely LOVE public speaking. Throughout my life I’ve gotten myself over the fear of performing or talking in public by join my school dance in 8th grade and chorus throughout my high school years. In all those occasion I looked at the audience straight in the eye and I had no fear or anxiousness. In college I offer myself up to be the speaker for any project there ever is and if it turns into an argument I will enjoy it even more. I love debating points across and seeing every subject and situation from different sides.
The N is for intuition and I probably lean more towards it than sensing. I like seeing the bigger picture and analyzing everything rationally. Every time someone tells me about a career they want to pursue I start thinking of every path they can take and how they can go about it and try and find what’s the highest that can be reached. Although I lean towards intuition I can also to an extent understand the sensing. I’m a realist and like looking at concrete facts and evidence. But I can take those facts and lead them to ideas and dreams depending on what the facts are.
The T as I’ve mention is for thinking. As with everything I can also be a feeler but not much. I like analyzing things and seeing what’s fair or not which can be very white and black. My feeling side let’s me see what would be better but it’s not always as prominent in my mind.
The last letter is P for perceiving. I don’t like the opposite of this. As a perceiver I strongly dislike deadlines and work better by winging things. I’ve probably spent my whole life improvising on the spot every single thing. I will always try to talk people out of a deadline as they can stress me out. I will sometimes follow deadlines and work in a structured setting but that makes me miserable.
In general as INTP I spend most of my time in my head analyzing different situations and thoughts. A new thought that plagues me is.. if scientist get the go ahead to clone humans and people decide to clone themselves and marry themselves would it be considered a same sex marriage or simply being narcissistic? While it’s another person they are still you and have your same thoughts and emotions so in a way it’s being a narcissist but the clone could still be considered as an entity in itself and therefore same sex marriage. Truly a puzzling question for me that I’ve decided to categorize as both! And yes, I know it might seem weird that I think of this but that’s who I am and I essentially consider no topic taboo but as something to analyze and look at from different sides.