I'm here wondering if it's worth it to try again I'm so afraid the Master that choose me or that I agree to be with would be too perfect and all my flaws will be there for him to see as clear as day will he keep me or let me go then I think to myself why am I going down that road everyone is entitled to his or her own choice and the flaws that I have made me who I am I'm so out of sorts that I am coming to the realization that I have been too long without a master.
I also learned a while back that this lifestyle is basically a necessity to those of us who needs it just like the body needs food and water the mind needs a safe space where it can both dominate or control for Doms/Masters and also the release of control for submissives.
Yes we can live a normal PC life but once your eyes have been opened you will always feel that missing piece, that complete release and if you don't have a person in your life that gives you that balance for some reason nothing seems to go right or even if it does something is still missing.
Maybe it's just me I don't know.
