As I begin writing this I tell you all that today I'm going to be standing by some of what I preach.
This morning I woke up knowing that I was not ready for what I was about to do my parents want to go camping for three days and I haven't went on a trip of any kind since the separation and divorce.
I feel small and scared and as someone who's natural persona is boisterous and charismatic it's jarring and it makes me spiral through those old times where all I knew was these feelings.
When I was abused I felt so small I couldn't do anything and it became my norm. All do to a error of judgement on my part where I held hope of a memory. Now any time I plan on going out doing anything I worry I get scared do to the traumatic experiences in grown with over a decade.
I almost didn't go....
But here we are on the road.
So in short you need to break the ties to constraints and bindings put onto you by others that hold you back. You are more than your conditioning and you can be what you were with or without someone so pray with me let's be birds and fly far from this place of familiarity and torment into a world of bright blinding options.
You are not alone truly nobodys alone.
(Also a little "fire birdy" told me some people may have issues with the voice clips in the future any voice clips will be audio of a reading to the current blog posting to help with any person's of different ability needs)