Most of the time when I chat with someone I state right away. I'm either just looking for cuddly, food friends.
Or I'm seeking a submissive boyfriend for a long term female led relationships possible marriage.
I'm into chastity, control, and micromanagement.
I'm not into humiliation or sissies or pain or extreme sex. (Or sex at all due to health issues.)
Talking to others, and reviewing profiles, it made me think about the idea of humiliation. . . .
Humiliation is different to everyone.
When I think of humiliation, I usually go straight to public embarrassment. You know making someone feel bad for doing something, usually accidently, wrong. To me, it feel more negative than positive or fun.
To me directing someone or leading them, is not humiliation. Correction is not humiliation, especially if they are bettering themselves or correct a bad habit or action.
As a dominant, I try to use all assets including my future submissive boyfriend in the most productive and positive way that I can.
I do not like belittling others. I do not like putting others down.
I like control, but not in away that makes others feel bad.
(Pardon my french) but I do have a very bitchy, moody side; in which, I snap at others. My family even calls me the bear. I feel bad as soon as I snap. I instantly want to make it up to those I snap at. I feel like a humiliated monster. I don't like the feeling of belittle why would others like the feeling to be belittled?
I just want a submissive boyfriend who loves me and wants me happy while he is chastity and earns his love. (My previous ex got me into it and I want it again.)
The ironic part of this is that man (who was married, but never posted it on his profile) inspired me to write this. He wants humiliation, it will be humiliate if his wife finds out. (Why marry someone who isn't things you are or at least compromise sometimes? sigh. . . Its my loneliness talking)
(What is so screwed up is I one of the most loyal people around yet people who cheating and hurting each other are getting some else special.grrr that is another cranky blog for another day.)
