First of all, I'm trying not to rant so much, but lately so much has stomped my nerves . . . ranting is best (less violent) way I can get it out.
I'm glad many agree on my rants, so I really don't feel alone. So thank you for the likes and comments, and even the messages.
Anyway, back to the current rant. . .
I am not looking for sex at the moment. This does NOT mean I will let off some random guy. I am demi-sexual, which means I need a submissive guy who is genuinely into me as I am into him. There has to be a connection and trust (even yes, love and affection) before I can physically touch him. However I cannot enjoy sex as orgasm for me are painful (and pain is a dealbreaker and turn off)
Many guys just do NOT understand. . . I have not had sex in over 4 years and I have not fooled around in over a year. . . I am not looking for it as it is NOT worth the pain. (I have not found many guys worth a conversation, there is no way they are even worth the pain.)
If I did find a decent guy, and we got in a committed relationship, I still expect something in return to even think of getting them, off. (because it's not fair that they get to enjoy a release and I get nothing. . . )
This is the biggest reason I haven't even tried to look.
I am sick of random men who instant think I am young and horny. They get so surprised when I say I am not interested in sex. . . (as if they have a cock of gold, whatever.)
I even have some say they are not interested in it, and yet when I try to talk about something else. . . . they block me, or stop talking. (Not interested my big ass. . . LOL)
I've had a hard time just making friends because even guys who claim to just be friends. . . get in that horny zone, sooner or later.
I am thinking I need to get asexual friends.
I've been through so much this week. . . and yet I just keep getting people into sex.
Best thing this week is that I got a compliment that my erotic writing is better than the author from 50 Shades of Gray. (I appreciate the comment, but she is published and I am not.)