So I have noticed that most of my previous rants and personal blogs on here are very outdated.
It’s been interesting . . . I had a deja vue, “duh” moment . . . about several months ago.
I have realized that I am bi, poly and into some sissifying. I also am into humiliation to a point. It was a few of my erotic stories on here that opened my eyes. (Especially how wet I was after I wrote them.) I thought humiliation was all about being mean and completely belittling, but sometimes it’s fun to laugh at a wiggling struggling cock as it pushes against the cage. I’m really into chastity and the idea of pain with pleasure and the struggle of getting to orgasm, not sure if it will be released or ruined, can be very exciting. . . I am starting to seek more darker and painful things. (I like to give pain, not receive).
I have learned that in order to personally see my darker side you have to have connection with me and earn my trust. I have to know that I have your trust as well.
I have learned that it’s not about only the kink for me, but the person or people I am with.
So I am evolving. I am still picky.
I have more than one sub currently, and I do NOT believe there is just one person that will satisfy me anymore. Each sub meets some kind of need, desire, or fantasy of mine. I care for each of them. They do know about each other. That is how feel poly should be . . . completely open and honest communication (feelings, hopes, desires fantasies all out on the table), or it will not work.
I rather have several keys on necklace, bracelet, or anklet, than a single diamond ring on my finger. (For those who are married, I’m glad you found your partner. Please note: I will chat, but I will NOT meet a married person to fulfill something their partner will not do. I respect the vow of marriage, but I realize that it is not necessarily for me.)
(Note: Please remember D/s for me does NOT happen overnight. I will not just “play” with any stranger on the street. I am still very demi-sexual, and I have to have open and honest communication. It takes time to earn trust on both sides: there needs to be conversation, messaging, and pictures and videos (real ones) . . . I will NOT meet someone if there are no pics, and chatting with someone at least a week. I understand life is short, but I am NOT meeting people just for “drink and session.” I do NOT play like that. I have been burned, ghosted, and stood up . . . I’m sick of those games. If you are seeking to catfish me, I do have my ways to check the pictures, and I am NOT that native anymore. )