I used to love sex. If I can't stop the cramping, when I orgasm, then I would love it again.
However in year 2013, I started to get horrible cramps during and after orgasm . . . Sometime they lasted up to three days, no meds helped. Sometimes a hot bath did help until I got out.
So, I stopped having orgasms, why should the guy I'm with enjoy orgasms if I could not? So I pushed no sex, which made my sex-feen ex . . .who felt he "needed" sex like oxygen, very cranky and we fought a lot. This fueled my depression.
About a year down the road, I felt bad, told him he could fuck thinking he was still going to love, cuddle, kiss and spoil me. . . I gave him rules, but he didn't listen to me or follow them.
The only thing that would turn me on is when he begged for something. . .
He cheated on me for my ex high school best friend, but that exploded in my face.
Then he fell for a money greedy psycho bitch, and wouldn't even hold my hand at the doctor.
However I've gone over a year without cumming. Even now it's been since February since I last came.
I understand the male human body needs release. . . My sub will release once a once automatically, unless they break my rules and maybe I'll ruin their orgasm.
There are ways to earn more . . .
I do enjoy a good begging session and sucking up can help too.
So chastity to me in a way of showing respect and devotion.