Two words describe my life: tease and unfair.
I guess I'm the heroine who is just supposed to keep pushing. . . but I am slowly losing my hope and I'm still picking up the shattered pieces of my heart.
Unfair, my ex ignored all the rules, cheated on me, and still got to travel and fuck the money sucking whore before having me lose my father's side family so he could go home for like three weeks and then died of cancer. . . meanwhile I live on in motel . . . I took care of dying ex and treated him with total respect, I do NOT deserve to live in a prision-like motel. . . damn bitch land-lady gives us unwritten rule after damn rule. We pay weekly for our room, and we are not hurting anyone. . . leave us alone! Worst part between my anemia and apnea, I can't sleep, focus or work. I was told not to drive or work by two doctors. I also have depression, anxiety, and PTSD. My mom is about to have a huge hernia surgery next month so she can't work either. Sighs. When are we going to get a break?
Tease. . . I get close to someone or a creature like our stray cat. . . I was told not to feed the cat and shoo it away, it kills my soul a little every time I hear the cat meow and I can't take care of it.
I make a new online friend who confesses their feelings to me, but when I need to vent they have to go.
I find someone who gets me, but they are dominant too. . .its why they get me. Sighs. (Can't a submissive get me and like me that I'm interested in too?)
I given in to a sub guy who thinks he is interested in the idea of me, but it does not last past the first date.
I find an apartment within our price range, but you must give a blood test, a 1000 plus down, and pets are way extra. By the time I get there, it taken. .
Why can't I get a break?
