A million thoughts race through my head, but they bounce in like a bad ping pong game.
I want a guy who gets me, trying not to compare them to my ex who shattered my heart, why would I need that again.
The only thing to get my mind to slow down is mindless games of yahtzee and candy crush.
Then I get beep from a messenger. . . "I'm hard."
I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to instantly lock his cock up and say "ask again" only to bend him over my knee and smack his ass when he does.
I want to walk, but I'm dizzy too much caffeine, nightmares,. . .
I want to cry, but I am not alone. I do NOT want questions over my f*cked up hormones, my family either is disappointed in me or don't understand.
I want a submissive boyfriend who wants to please me, seek the mistress, not play the can I release myself game just after one night of chatting.
Why can't I find a decent, submissive guy?