I've noticed that the longer I've not had sex (or an decent orgasm, almost a year now). . . The less I'm into the fetishes. (I was never into the cross-dress, pain, furry, or sissy fetish, yet they keep finding me, not reading my profile entirely, sighs. Can't my submissive boyfriend please just stay a guy? I know that those fetishes turn on a spark for some people, but not me. I hope you find your right fetish-kinky partners.)
I used to like the bondage, but I can't enjoy it: to be honest . . .getting wet and horny is just a bitter tease to me. . . (It makes my bitchy-bear come out, and I hate being mean. Its not the natural me.)
Now I just rather plan someone's life that loves me and loves me in control while they stay in a cock cage.
I need to control the situation.
I love calendar, date books, rules, charts, lists. . . They make sense to me. Something is either finish or not.
My submissive boyfriend deserves a reward or punishment for things done or not done.
Control gives me importance and turns me on, wakes me up, but not in a sexual way. It in a sucessful achievement way.
I have goals and dreams I want accomplish in my life. I want an ambitious submissive boyfriend. He cannot be the type to sit around all day. He need to work and show me that he wants to achieve something too more than my happiness. (That's a huge challenge by its self. )
I think I'm searching for a unicorn.
