54 y/o
Santa Fe, New Mexico
Just Putting It Out There...
I have known that i am sexually submissive for over half of my life, I began training in 1994. I continued on until life changes caused me to shelve D/s (I found most Doms too intense anyway and pushed my limits too fast and too hard... no bringing along... no patience...) for awhile and I had a 15 year long vanilla fwb. It was unfulfilling, of course.
Things changed about a year and a half ago when he dumped me and now I realize that he never told me of the woman that I am.
I had three previous abusive relationships.
So, now I know that I deserve what I seek, I will describe it and it is specific.
I need to respect my Man and if he uses D/s strictly for a sex game or to get off, he misses the spiritual and psychological aspects which a sub like me longs for. I am a VERY strong woman and I have proven that I do not need a man.
I take care of and protect myself, alone. I lived in my car for 6 months and depended on no man, nor drugs other than weed to chill me out, nor alcohol EVER. I am very petite and unassuming but I can be fierce. I am very brave as well.
I need a man who is just like me as far as standing up for those with no voice but STRONGER.
I need to respect Him.
No two ways about it.
I need to trust him to help make good decisions for me and to guide me in MY best interests as a person on a path of growth.
I was not put here on this planet, in this lifetime, to be simply molded into what He desires as a sexual object.
I am BEYOND that. I am a strong soul who seeks her counterpart. I willingly submit to only a man who is able to become a couple and to make decisions best for our collared union.
I know my path. I walk it alone presently and have turned away plenty of "Doms" and men.
If I don't respect Him, I must teach Him how to BE, spiritually, psychologically and counsel HIM.
I know my issues and I do not want to walk a relationship with somebody who is just now discovering His.
I need a grounded, evolved, present and aware man.
Yes, at 50, and with quite a bit of life-experience under my belt and much thought about D/s, I know exactly what I want and need for myself.
Of course, He must be very experienced in D/s. I am not a starter sub.
He MUST be fit, healthy, sexually able to perform many times a day, active, love the outdoors and be willing to relocate to New Mexico.
I just got here and love it and will NOT be relocating again in this lifetime for a man. This is a beautiful area of the United States and I have chosen it for my home after over a year of searching. If it is right, He will end up here.
Just putting this out there... but this is what I ultimately seek.
June 21, 2020 at 4:00 PM