|Switch key(switch female)||
M/s... new to this
9 months ago • 10/02/2019 11:41 am
Switch key(switch female) • 10/02/2019 11:41 am
W/we were both kinky and that along with a natural attraction is what made U/us become more than friends in the first place. my experience in the Lifestyle had always been as a Domme except with bedroom only D/s wherein i did submit to one man before. Since Master and i both identified as Dom/mes, W/we kept power exchange out of our relationship. In retrospect i should have seen that i had a NEED to submit to Him 24/7 in my general daily life. i was always looking for ways to serve Him without even fully realizing it. In the past couple of months He started flirting with D/s innuendos in O/our relationship... things i discovered i LOVED... giving me orders sexually, giving me orders in formal public settings, eating off my plate, giving me that Dom 'look,' sharing some of his power exchange fantasies with me, touching me with a different kind of energy, etc. When i came to Him to discuss this and how i hoped it would become O/our norm, i naturally was thinking D/s since that was what i had done before with my subs in the past. He asked me if i wanted Him to be my Master. He told me if so, then i knew I'd better ask Him permission to be His slave. .... So now it's been a month and it's been amazing. i knew he had been a pro-Dom, but i didn't know He was such an experienced Master! He said it's something He hadn't been able to do in a long time because he hadn't been in the right circumstances with the right person in a long time. Master is taking things really slow with my training and it's driving me crazy. He's already brought me into sub-space twice and it's been beautiful. My dilemma is that ive never been a Lifestyle submissive before, let alone the 24/7 slave that i now am. W/we dont live together but see each other almost every day. W/we communicate daily as I must have His permission to go anywhere that is not part of my daily routine as well as to touch myself sexually in any way. i've expressed to Him that my wish is for Him to determine my finances, appearance, basically everything. He says He does control "everything, at all times." i am so privileged to have Someone i trust enough to be able to have an M/s relationship. He's just moving too slow and i feel like something's missing, like it doesn't all feel real yet. Is this normal in the beginning of an M/s relationship for the slave to feel like it isn't "enough" yet? How do i be the best slave i can be while waiting for my Master to really begin training me?? He says He is still learning me and that W/we are not ready to introduce protocols yet other than no direct eye-contact. i dont want yo be pushy, but it makes me feel lost and incomplete to give myself and my trust over completely and then be standing here waiting for Him to take the reigns. Any advice is appreciated as i am 100% brand new at being a slave and Master deserves the very best because He is the very best. Is my frustration normal?
Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this! Sorry it's so long... it's the only way I can give the full picture. Thank you.