A friend told me. If i wish to change my outcome then i need to change my responces.... or something along those lines.
Firstly thank you.
I have been thinking on this since you said it. I do have the same knee jerk reaction. One thing i tend to do is over analyze as ive spoken of before. Pick apart what I did and how can i do better..... but what if its not me. Granted sometimes it is, but also sometimes it isn't. Yet i still take on that ive done something wrong.
It got me thinking that constantly picking myself apart maaaaaaybe not the right thing to do lol. Like dah i know, im a bit slow sometimes.
Last year was a big year (and i can say last year cause im in my time machine as some say living down under). Ive woken with some slight adjustments in my attitude. My attitude has been a problem of late. Woken with some light.
To have fun. To do the things that i love. To love myself. I try to mold myself to someone when i meet them. Im not going to do that now. I spend so many hours waiting on others to make a decision (or just get up and get motivated) when ive been bouncing around the house for hours.
Im not ready. And this morning i accept that. I want to be free for a bit. Embrace the good things about myself. Im a hopeless romantic. I like being silly. I loooove the beach and i want to see more of my own country. I love mangoes. I love talking. And i have a stack of paintings in my head waiting to get out. Im also blessed with 2 beautiful creatures and the three of us will be my focus this year. Im still open to what comes along. But im not sitting around waiting for it. Im still going to have my down days we all do. But i will keep in the back of my mind about changing my knee jerk reactions.
You want me, come find me. Make sure you bring along some chocolate, a smile and some rope :)
Now im off to climb a mountain. Literally. Chowder monkey heads xxx
Oh and HAPPY NEW YEAR
