It is interesting when you put yourself out there sometimes, the reaction you can receive.
Sometimes I will admit I do not feel like I am particularly kinky enough. Which is silly. But sometimes I think I get that imposter syndrome. Where I'm waiting for someone to tap me on the shoulder and escort me from the room because I don't belong. But truth is I can't do just vanilla. And I like some vanilla mixed in with my kink. I think most of us do..... I'm constantly and forever learning about myself, my mental limits, my desires and my idea of what I want and who I am is fluid. And that's ok.
Right now I am taking a different direction and it kind of makes me giggle sometimes. So I have signed up on a vanilla dating site because ..... well I don't know why really. Think I thought I might have more luck finding what I want in a reverse way. On kink sites it's always just about what turns you on, what they want to do to me and crap that I feel is very personal and private but in the kink world is not always seen that way. So I'm a kinky prude. That's ok.
Anyway I have had a few vanilla conversations now and it makes me giggle when I freak them out. See I had this idea that I wasn't that kinky...... turns out I am waaaaaaaaay off the vanilla playing field. It has been fun enlightening and freaking some of the local wildlife and atm I am lucky enough to have found someone whom I enjoy conversations with and I know from the start he is open to kink as he has tried a little bit..... time to test the waters (through conversations) and see how he feels about it before we get too far invested.
This dating thing is so messed up lol. At least it provides me with entertainment
