Since joining cage something has changed in me that i never used to be. Reliant on chat. Whether that be in the lobby, bond or my circle on other chatting apps. Using contact from others to make me feel loved. Whether this be from friends or my Dom. I have no issue making friends but in real life I'm introverted and tend to keep to myself. I dont go into great deep conversations with people. But i love the human mind and figuring out how people work. Since making a few friends here that has been my favorite past time. Chatting lol.
So i am consciously trying to occupy my mind with other things. I feel it is for the best. Not trying to pull away but realising how much I use those around me to keep me amused. Even my dom. Relying on him to do the same. Occupy my time. Im greedy that way. I want all the attention but its not realistic when it comes to work and life. I would take it all if i could 😊. So for now I sit reading, writing and painting. To take joy in the peace. Thanks for reading my thoughts for the day
