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Just my random thoughts as I try to learn and grow
5 years ago. August 13, 2018 at 12:19 PM

The multiple different attacks from different directions from the same person is making me dizzy. Anger then guilt followed by praise and to be told I'm needed and wanted.

Well i dont need your words of encouragement, i am strong on my own even behind these tears.

I dont need your money to rescue me from life. I make my own and i am happy to go without if it makes me appreciate life more.

I dont need your sad stories of your past to tell me how bad it is going to be. Scare tactics and emotional manipulation used to work but i am becoming wiser to your games.

I don't need any of it. But i will take it. Because somewhere buried deep it helps me. Helps me see who you are. Helps me gain strength in my own convictions. Sometimes i feed off of the guilt. But gradually i am rising from the heaviness. You say you don't understand, yet i am so exhausted from explaining myself. All i know is it is time for me. You call me selfish. Call me what you like. It wont change my mind

rosethorn​(sub female) - many know what physical abuse it, there is emotional and mental abuse too, sometimes things can turn toxic, you are awesome beautiful and amazing how you are. They need you not the other way around, im sending hugs and good thoughts to an amazing and beautiful woman and sub xxx my door is open if you want to talk.
5 years ago
CK45​(sub female) - Sounds like you are moving through the feelings.
Emotional abuse can often be worse than physical abuse (no offence intended towards anyone that has experienced it).
The scars of mental abuse remain hidden behind the masks we all wear as humans resurfacing out of context and hurting us in other ways.
Stand back and take a look at what you wrote and how you are feeling now.
Im not a psychologist can't diagnose anyone however I have been in that situation. (cognitive dissonance created by an abusive partner).
You seem to know you deserve better than you are getting and that's more than half the battle. Stay strong and true to yourself.
Wishing you some internal peace hon. ❤️
5 years ago
Bunnie - 🤗 I’m just around the corner of you need me.
5 years ago
alawey​(sub female){(OWNED BY } - Sweetie u know I m here. And will help in anyway I can. Sending much love.
5 years ago

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