I can not beleive it has been almost a year since i joined here and it is making me have some gentle reflection. When i first started here i was fresh and green. Like very green. I knew absolutely nothing! Like most people who join here i was looking for answers and guidance. What i found was a community i did not expect as well as some great friends. And im way better at geography and time zones now lol. I thought i could just take a peak and be happy with that. Oh how wrong i was. It is more like an addictive drug.
I may not be as active in chat anymore (side note im still happy to have one on one chats). Occasionally i jump in but not often.
Yes i have been hurt but the majority of my experiences here have been positive and i definitely love the in depth conversations i have had with some of you. Teaching me and giving me a different perspective. To those of you whome i have gotten to know you have been invaluable and also a thank you to the kind strangers who feel compelled to send me a message and share their stories.
Looking to the future with open eyes. I can't wait to see what the next year brings
It has been emotional, confronting, confusing, challenging, loving and dont forget fun. I have never questioned not only what i have been taught but also what i thought i wanted. Once i stripped back all the bullshit and decided to try to make up my own mind the lighter and happier i felt. So now here i stand, still green but more confident in what i want. More knowledgeable yet still rather innocent. But i have purpose to my yearnings now. I have understanding and the ability to think a little clearer. And i have friends and support which i never had before.
Sending much thoughtful love
Star
