Something occurred in chat this morning and it has me thinking... It did not feel good. In fact, it shut me down. In the moment I felt like I was put in my place...and maybe rightfully so. But it continues to bother me.
And so I'm thinking on it. Mulling it over. Analysing. Am I overreacting? Being too sensitive? I don't know. Reading too much into it? Again, I don't know.
We are all in different stages of this LS - committed, established RL relationships, long distance and online. Some are searching, some just beginning. Some see each other every day and some not at all.
We all struggle and have our issues.
Up until today, I felt comfortable expressing my own concerns, issues, fears, worries and musings.
Now....I feel I have to take into account who is in the room. Are they in similar circumstances as I am or will I offend them or make them feel bad...or mad...because of my own circumstances.
I do not like these thoughts or feelings. It's too much like anywhere else. That I have to monitor what I share because I cannot be my true self. It does not feel like the inclusive atmosphere it once was.
I will continue to ponder and sit on these thoughts and see where they take me.
