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Musings of a lost soul who’s fire has all but went out. Learning who I might be so I might be able to burn bright. To forgive those who poured water on my coals is my goal.... to a better and brighter future I step, hoping I find my peace.
4 years ago. September 10, 2020 at 2:47 AM

To look at life as a glass half full.

I forget to do this every day. I always see the failures I’ve had and the hardships I’ve endured. Yet I never seem to see the positive things I bring into the world. The smiles on my patients faces when I show them a little extra compassion or the co-worker I don’t  know but gave a inspirational talk to when they were feeling like a failure. How I’ve made peoples day just by the simple kindness I’ve shared. A smile here a complement there.

 


Ask for help when in need.

I always try to offer help yet never ask for it in return. I don’t want to be a burden on anyone and yet I am to myself in this way. I can’t ask for help but know I may need it. Always wanting to be able to stand on my own two feet.

 


Self control is a must.

Knowing I feel a deep anger for someone yet I am able to hold it in and turn away. Not to Commit that heinous act of violence begging to be released by that demon inside. Instead I smile and I walk away much to my dismay. Does causing pain make up for the pain caused? What if it is returned as if in revenge? Would I still hold it so deep. These questions I may never truly answer because I do value my self control.

 


Everyone’s path is different.

This is a hard one when I start my introspection. I feel I’m always to slow. I’ve missed opportunities I should have taken. Yet sometimes the speed isn’t the goal but the trip we take. I am walking down a broken path leading somewhere. Coming from where I’ve been, I hope it has a warmth like the sun on my back. Or the wonderful vibrations you feel after a long motorcycle ride. The end is not my goal but the path itself. The sights and smells and tastes. I know I have my share of scars but I hope they don’t rub me to wrong on this path of mine.

 

 

 

Raidho - A recent realization of mine. And thank you
4 years ago
Raidho - I’ve accepted what I can’t change and working towards what I can. I try not to let my mind fester like you say, yet at times it seems my subconscious wants to remind me of those things. So I’ve decided to use this outlet to hopefully put it to rest.
4 years ago
Ingénue{VK} - Serenity ❤ Self expression is a useful habit. I'm glad you blogged
4 years ago

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